still feeling some sort of sadness. but after a long and depressing day, finally, much feelings had gone away. thoroughly accepted it. not much thoughts in my mind now. but i guess i didnt really feel that much for him, since it was just the beginning of feelings developed. it's much easier to get over with compared to the feelings i had for beng for years. just feeling a lil' hurt cuz he was the first i felt for in these 3 years without beng inside. and somehow, kinda 'cheated' (perhaps by myself) cuz i was actually one of the last to know. that was probably why i felt so affected. cant really describe my feelings deep inside, cuz it's all juggled up. mixed feelings. hmm... but thank god that i still have my classmates and friends. sk, sheena, niza, russell and well, him. so it's not the end of all the joy in school. right now, waiting for tuesday to come, so i can see my friends again in school. i miss them.
