Thursday, November 30, 2006 ♥
i've got no idea why it's so lag when i tried visiting my blog front lately. as a result, i always have to visit someone else's blog (which is in my list of addresses) before i link to mine from there. and the speed's only slightly faster when i do that. ==anw, i dont think im going to take up the job at that eatery. dont feel like, cuz i dont want to go through the "hypocritism" thing with that primary school friend. it'll be very tiring. and also, the boss who looked so much like leslie. well, the pay's $4.50/hr. it's neither too little, nor a lot. so i guess i can try looking for another similar-paying job without much difficulty. but.. sad thing, i've wasted so many days, hence, delaying the repayment of loan to angie.boring at home. i hope i'll get a job soon. and better still, EJ camp soon!
Wednesday, November 29, 2006 ♥
dreamt of brien and sk last night. it seemed very realistic, but funny. i love the days studying with the 2 of them, and of course that day out with them plus cyrus at town. though i was like a big bulb between the lovey dovey couple, it was really fun/nice being with them. :D i will miss those times cuz school is over, and i wont get the chance to study together with them anymore. it is sad.sk girl. plan another day out okay (other than mahjong :X)? i miss you!
Tuesday, November 28, 2006 ♥
yay! i've finally found a part-time job with hazel to see me through some difficult ($$$) times before EJ camp! hehe. travelled to and fro at town this morning looking for suitable jobs but to no avail. the ideal ones available in the papers are either too far, or that they are only open to ages 18 and above. okay, though am happy to have found this f&b job, but... i'll tell you a bad bad news. a primary school 'enemy' of mine is already a staff there. idiot la. im feeling so uncomfortable now already. cuz i hate dealing with "office politics" or shall we call it "a-friendship-on-the-outside, emity-on-the-inside". you should've listened to us talk just now, so hypocritical. i really really hate this! but, good thing i went through this when i was still a crew in BK at the tender age of 14 (sec 2), so i can still handle this now although i dont like it.honestly, im not really interested in f&b jobs la, but at least i get to serve customers here which is what i love doing. cuz im always polite to them and naturally, get the satisfaction when they are happy with my service. :D anw, my boss-to-be looks almost like leslie. okay, not exactly the looks, but certainly the seh (colour, in hokkien), means, the way they talk and stuff la. really alike. erm, although almost all my friends think that leslie is totally far too 'out' to be a boyfriend, and although he's a bad egg (i'd say), but, he can be really soft with you as well (depending on the situation). perhaps it's because of what we had both went through together, that's why i still feel a certain sense of belonging to him even until now after years. i cant explain, you'll really have to go through it personally to understand. i just have this wierd feeling towards him, plus some mixed feelings of hatred and regret (all confused and mixed up). i really cant explain. well, if we were to return to the past again, i think i'd probably still choose what i chose then. cuz if not for what i went through, i wouldnt have learnt this much. sorry, if you think that im asking for trouble, but these are sacrifices to make.as i've said before, major things i keep in heart, certain minor matters i wont be able to forget. it's not like i want to think of them but im just feeling so mixed up as memories keep haunting my mind right now.
Monday, November 27, 2006 ♥
just arrived home from suntec. intended to go for the walk-in interview i saw in the papers myself. dont question me as in why am i a loner who loves going here and there alone. i'll prefer to think that im independent. :D okay, anw, only when i reached there, then i realised that it's a pub. it didnt state there in its ad. ==" so in the end, i didnt even enter. dad will nv allow me to work in such places. in the past, i used think that he's such a "lao gu dong" (old antique). i always thought that what he had seen and went through in his time, was all but in the older generation. but now as i grow up gradually, i realised that danger is danger, there is no such thing as in what generation we're in. plus the fact that ppl (esp girls) do change when they get into environments like such frequently. dad's trying to protect me from what the wholesome of girls he knew/know went through. :) anw, i nv like such places since young. it's too complicated for me. perhaps when im older and more matured, then i'll visit such places. hehe.well, as i was on my way back home, i saw sherman on the bus. a few weeks since i last saw him. he's better looking now i think. haha. am missing him and his usual stupid jokes a little right now. will visit him at his house soon. :) it's so near anw.gonna meet up with angie to shop for some stuff later at 6plus.
Saturday, November 25, 2006 ♥
gonna start job-hunting soon on mon! i hate idling at home. workaholic hazel finally agreed to my great planning of schedule. looking forward to start work.. :)hahaha. somebody's on disapppearing act! but she cant hide for long la. "the fire cannot be wrapped up by paper." im waiting for further news. anw, EJ camps coming! im sooo excited.
Thursday, November 23, 2006 ♥
prom last night. finally, it's over. but it's kinda contradicting that im missing my classmates already so soon. so, that's the end of my sec school life. saddening.
come to think of it, so much had happened during this 5 years of education at cvss. major things i keep in heart, certain minor matters i wont be able to forget. true that i've been through the lowest point of my life during this time, but i've also experienced the peak of it so far as well.listing out some of the greater impacts during this time,
sec 1:
- JIAAB camp
- got to know jasmineLIM and got into the seng kang cycle
sec 2:
- the relationship with beng
- entered 260 ... ... ...
sec 3:
- the conflict with jas and group
- the breakup with ck
sec 4:
- EJ camp 1
sec5:
- Adventure camp 2 which really changed my life. i was transformed and am still transforming now with the power of my Father's love. :)
* like knowing the importance of wisdom, and that it is not equivalent to knowledge or intelligence ,
* that by being pretty doesnt mean that one is beautiful. it's a vast difference ,
* plus plus plus ... ... ...
and i said that i'm tranformed, not i've. Jesus is doing the job.
- though it cant ever be compared in either the length of time or the depth of feelings given to beng, the someone has indeed left me an impact, wierd as it is. as normal as another friend he is to me now, i wont deny the fact that he has certainly made me lose confidence in falling for another guy. im just fearful, at least for now.
okay, these are just some summarised events deep-rooted in my heart these years. but the good news is that i've grown up so much with the Holy Spirit opening my eyes to see and grow through these incidents. something im proud to speak of; im a wise girl now. i know i've really grown up. :)
Tuesday, November 21, 2006 ♥
quite a packed day yesterday. went bugis, then far east plaza, lucky plaza and to the heeren. while both brien and sk needed to get their stuff for the prom, cyrus and i tagged along, to help the couple shop for what they needed. plus some comments and opinions for them. :) though not exactly fun, but i really enjoyed the time being here and there with them. i guess it was due to the stress-free mood we had all put on (cuz it's the end of the o's), blah blah blah.. well, on the whole, i know that it was still the nice feeling of being in the company of friends, esp those im comfortable with.
anw, went for pedicure and that's my first. i used to think that treatments like these were a waste of both effort and money. yesterday, i was enlightened. haha. though i chose the wrong colour, i enjoyed. it was relaxing and just, not-the-same la! lols. am going for more treatments like that in future! sk must accompany me huh.. :D
Monday, November 20, 2006 ♥
such a wonderful day. and im sure most bloggers in my list would be blogging away today like what im doing. cuz it's finally the end of the o's!.. and indeed finally. the exam period has been so stressful and tiring for me, due to insufficient sleep and fun. :P anw, it's over la.aww, evan cancelled the lunch appointment with me. it's been postponed to thu. but well, there's another programme coming up later. shopping and lunch with my recent study mates!.. okok, gtg take a short nap first before meeting them.good day ppl. have fun.
Wednesday, November 15, 2006 ♥
wahahaha. you guys noticed the change in my blog? beautiful right? i spent lotsa time on it, though the changes may not be that noticeable.okay, took my accounts paper 2 today. not that difficult. was feeling kinda stressed out as i was preparing for this paper. as some may know, this is my strongest subject and i really want to do well for it. an A1. but because i went town and then over to brien's place to meet both sk and him yesterday, i spent quite some time in coaching. so at the end of the day, i went home learning close-to-nothing. so i felt even more stressed cuz i didnt prepare as much as what i thought i should. plus plus, i woke up later than what my alarm should ring at, so, even lesser time to revise. :( hence, i tried reaching school early to browse through some impt points on my notes. so sway. i could really only flip through when mrs ong came rushing us all up. said a prayer, went into the hall. as starting off in the exam, my brain was slow. spent an unusual 20mins on just a general journal question. but fortunately sk chose the topic amalgamation for me to help her in, so i did learnt something in between and it came out as an optional question today! :D rushed and managed to complete everything on time. 25mins before the time was up. drew my lines, wrote my name on the papers and 5 more mins for me to check them once again. just nice.gonna revise my accounts again later at night for friday's paper 1. and i hope sk's free tmr. need her help now for history. she's an expert in story-telling. :)
Friday, November 10, 2006 ♥
maths paper 2 was easy today. much easier than what i've expected it to be. plus plus, what brien taught both yesterday and today didnt come out. but it wasnt a waste of time! i really enjoyed the time spent with them (sk and brien) studying. cuz we were really studying and not crapping. esp when we were in a fluster. lols. it's really the first time that i made use of EVERY single min to teach and to learn for a paper. then i rmb that last night when sk and i came back from sheng siong after using the loo, then brien said about how he tried to bear with his nature call. real funny. and earlier this afternoon, when we were on our way to catch a cab (also in a fluster), sk used her jacket and blocked her face from the strong wind with it. hahaha.okay. heading for bs now! bb.
Wednesday, November 08, 2006 ♥
im dead beat. and i mean it. managed to fall asleep only at 4plus late last night. and it aint easy for me to pull myself up at 6am this morning. but thank God the work till 3am last night was worthwhile. managed to fit my essay into section one though there may be a little out of point, not that bad. but section two wasnt as good. it's ok la. im just so happy that english is finally over. i hated english (not too sure since when). honestly speaking, i think it was partly cuz of mrs chua. but im certain that my D7 grade for prelims eng definitely made me dislike this subject/language so much. anw, i still have to thank dora sooo much for helping me in my essays. and i actually trust her much much more than any other eng teachers i ever had, esp mrs chua. you dont know how she(mrs chua) nearly caused me to fail my eng if i aint alert enough to ask dora for help rather than keep being on her waiting list like an idiot. and just for your info, dora's a future teacher-to-be! and i know that she'll definitely be a great great one. :)
okay, will post again soon. hospital-theming time! :D
Jesus loves me.
Tuesday, November 07, 2006 ♥
chem paper today. it was kinda difficult. but i realized that the questions that came out were ALL chapters i selected to study for. cuz of the insufficient time, i did selective revision of about 1 chapter out of every 3. to choose all the chapters all SO correctly, grace grace. :) but the thing is that i didnt focus on everything, again due to the time constrain. as a result, many of the things the paper asked for, i didnt know what to write. just some info here and there in my mind for background knowledge. uh huh, that's it for my science by right. but i know my Daddy would not sit still and do nothing. that's for sure, that my results would definitely exceed what i deserved and what i thought i'd score. mark my words and when the time comes, know that it is Jesus okay! :)anw, gotta go take a nap first before i start my tedious memorising of model essays as well as format of situational writing. am seriously frustrated with darn english but i've got no choice.
Sunday, November 05, 2006 ♥
woohoo!.. great great service today. i nearly burst into tears. so filled with Abba's love for me right now that i feel like hugging everyone i see!.. am just so blessed to have the one and only answer the world is looking desperately for -- our Heavenly Father. and i aspire to be dora-the-second or whosoever i so admire. and im sure my Daddy Abba's moulding me right now to become the best adrienne-the-first, for He's nv want me to be second in row. am the priceless jewel He made me to be. i love Him and will forever be right in His embrace. Jesus rocks.
Saturday, November 04, 2006 ♥
just got up from my nap. went swimming in the morning. argh.. now i feel like an indian.. ==" not much difference from the outside. but from the inside, i can see both yellow and black skin. i dont like this. =(anw, gotta start work soon. ss and maths paper 1 this coming mon. my goodness, i havent even finished my revisions for both when the eng essays come tumbling down at me, making me suffocate. but well, 2 nights (or midnights, i shall say) ago, when i was into my maths, i suddenly felt the urge to play pastor prince's cd. the one on Jesus feeding the five thousand. then i realized there were things i actually didnt hear and absorb previously though it was still the same cd/sermon. and i really am grateful to my mighty Jesus for opening my ears and showing me what to do at this point of time when im still in this helplessness state w/o sufficient time to complete my revision. i've learnt alot. :)today's sat. feel like eating out for dinner. shall call dad later on! :) am also in a glutton-ie state now. not eaten anything since morning and im hungry!..
Wednesday, November 01, 2006 ♥
HAHAHAHA. bio paper wasnt easy. but neither was it tough. great. no regrets for sacrificing my sleep last night. couldnt finish the whole syllabus though i worked till 3am late last night. praise Jesus.btw, a dearie of mine directed me to someone's blog last night and i saw an open confrontation against me. erm, im ok with it la, actually. cuz of what pastor prince said last few weeks - "ignore those false accusations. the moon just continues shining above no matter how the dog barks at it." lols. good illustration uh.. honestly, by flesh i was angry. but as i walked in the spirit, i really am not now.well, just a msg to this person (no mentioning of names for the the sake of .....) if you happen to come stomping across this place, :*it's ok if you're angry at me and are writing nasty things against me. i really dont mind cuz it's your blog after all. but one thing i can tell you straight forward and without hesitation, you are wrongly accusing me. if you really think otherwise and would like to talk abt it (though i dont quite think you will), i'd so love to do so too, and would try to make time out. would be all ready to clear things up. btw, if you feel that this is a sacarstic msg, i want to let you know that it's not. to this end, i also want to tell you that im not avoiding you on purpose in any ways, just wanted to keep a distance before we're both ready to handle this. lastly, im not angry at you nor trying to create a quarrel-in-blog thing here with you.well, if you still insist on playing the "guess game" after reading this, i wont be playing along, just for your information. am just too busy for the o's. anw, all the best. bb.hmm, am waiting for angie to be released from her band practice to shop for some stuff. afterwhich, i'll be meeting dora! =D
