Wednesday, November 21, 2007 ♥
edy's last paper ystd. finally.yay. :)went hm for a quick shower and change of clothes after wrk and met him at bugis junction. 10pm.long long time since we last meet up. missed him bad.anw, went for steamboat at bugis.good food, good company. :Dleft at 1am. then, we broke our record again. :Dused to walk halfway through our journey to hg before cabbing.this time round, we took 3&half hrs. sent me all e way frm bugis to my place. lol. so much to talk abt. plus e perfect weather, a real-cool night. hehe. then took a cab hm in bedok himself. hmm. responsible guy. ^^no conversational-restrictions between us as usual. just ourselves. and as always, he taught me things. :) and even forced me out of my own self-deception w all his straightforward words. :X felt poked, but well, it's a good thing la. yea, thanks friend.anw, got hm only at 430 then to bed at 5am.hmm. met sherman and hazel at kovan this afternoon. 2plus.then head off to mt elizabeth for our dentist appt again.finally and finally, no more delays. im w my braces now.turquoise colour for me. and hazel's violet. omg. shld have gotten a darker colour like hers.look so awful now. face puffy. cant even smile naturally. :Xanw, im glad k`hg still keeps me like before. was so afraid they'll give me e sack. recepts are supposed to look presentable you knw. :Xon unpaid leave till at least fri, in case it starts to hurt real bad tmr like wad doc predicted it to be like. $$$ fly. :Swill be getting used to it soon i knw, but it'll be better if this 1&half yrs flies real quick and it's over and done w. good teeth. :)
Saturday, November 17, 2007 ♥
16oct-16nov07
happy 1st month! ystd.
hehe.
yea, it might sound kinda insignificant compared to e couples ard us w a history of yrs and still counting. but it's a good start to be able to get through this first crucial mth, you agree? :D though i admit it's one w quite a few ups-and-downs and not v confident if we'll really last, but im really looking forward to more anniversaries. honest, im serious now.
well, didnt go anywhere ystd. cuz by e time baby knocked off, it's alrdy 8pm. and e weather looked unmerciful. :X
but doesnt matter anw. im contented. really. cuz tt's wad i call quality time tgt. :)btw, one more announcement.thanks to superlewis..im now back at kbox. starting wrk on mon.kbox hg now. wad a joke. a u-turn and im back in e company in just 2wks. -.-been w kbox for just a month plus and i'd have been in 3 diff outlets. lol.but morn-noon shift now. no more late-night-wrking-shifts. yay.anw, i still hope i can be back in k amk la. will be asking for a transfer once yishan leaves and they're w/o e morn recept.
Wednesday, November 14, 2007 ♥
sun; 11nov07serve day.didnt get enough slp as usual.still, i was so early. :)and feeling great serving.yea, it's not just abt e kids.it's abt our loving DaddyJesus.then met hazel to go see see hp.it's high time i changed my phone.nxt sun i guess.got hm and slept like a log. too slpy.mon; 12nov07went for a movie w ty at cine. 5pm.Lions For Lambs. quite nice.then walk walk ard.afterwhich nic and i met at 10pm. kbox amk.had dinner tgt. a light one cuz im on diet. then strolled e vicinity till 12plus.great talking to him.and it's just at e right time you knw. both downcast. lol.he's always such a wonderful friend la. e kind tt almost extinct.accompanied me to hg green for baby. :Dthen baby's billiard uncle sent us to kbox hg.waited for super to knock off at closing, 2plus. yea la, superlewis, who else.. lol.almost fell aslp in e rm. was so slpy. while nic and baby sang. -.-had supper at 401. they did, nic and i didnt.then got hm at 4plus.anw, was feeling nausea e whole time i was w e 3 of them. but thank God e yucky stuff came out only when i got hm and in e shower. :Xtook a pill and went straight to bed. just too exhausted.mental and physical.
Wednesday, November 07, 2007 ♥
got hm at 3plus last night.but only to be in bed at 7am.
e urge to quiet down before Daddy.
not escaping His Words anm, i knw it's not gg to wrk any longer.
relating everything to Him personally, finally i broke down.
cant take it anm. im allowing Him to intervene and make decisions for me.
i cant act like i dont hear Him. i cant act like pastor's words aint true in my case. i cant act like im e only one taking charge. seeing e body language he's performed w/o even realizing it himself, i can act no longer.
yes, i trust Daddy's gonna do a good job on both sides.
He's always faithful. shant be too affecting on either of us i believe.
but somehow, a part of me would still hurt like now, i admit, knwing we'll soon be over.
had a good long cry, but e aftermath was really refreshing, w my faithful Daddy right w me e whole while.
im finally committing my heavy burdens unto Him. it's not me alone anm. :)Daddy's proud of me. :D
Monday, November 05, 2007 ♥
last day at wrk ystd.kinda sad to leave.but e thought of this break really refreshes me.no more upside down hrs.no more 6 days wrk wk.no more cant-get-up-to-go-church sundays.yay. :DDanw, not gg for Arrow Ad Camp.mom says braces will be a hassle if i join.so better not sign up. :(okays, more blogging time now as im jobless. :)bb ppl.
Friday, November 02, 2007 ♥
why dont our frequency meet?i hate to knw why.it's always this reason.a reason tt i cant tell him cuz he'll NV be able to understand.i hope i'm able to obey Daddy.but i cant. i've given things up, i've put in my true feelings.i want to give up, but im afraid to lose him.im frustrated.all my fault. im dim-blinded.-.-
