♥ The Sozo-fied Child ♥

Tuesday, August 28, 2007 ♥

@ REDANG.
wait till im back before you call/msg me okay?
thanks! :)

(wed-fri, 29-31AUG07)

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Friday, August 24, 2007 ♥

23august just passed again.
e 5th significant one for me.
every yr, i'll get a chance of saying something to him this time. this yr, surprisingly, only after i lose this sense of can-still-reach-him, i'd like to make it not so brief unlike e last 4 yrs.
but it's impossible now.
and tt's wad i fear as this date draws near. to accept tt he's not there anm, forever. :(
it's difficult.
well, it's over.

not sure if this farewell thing's still gg on. so few ppl to ask, and even less are gg.
even if it means for only edy and i w Jack, i'll still be there. :) just no idea if Jack still wants this gg on w. :X

reading e mails in my tp mailbox, i can tell you i still miss PID alot. ALOT.
i really hate to give up on it halfway you knw.
when ppl ask me if im decided on withdrawing, firmly i say i am. but inside, im still battling w it. it's no easy task to give up something halfway when im alrdy started on it. my friends, my course of study, my previous efforts, my proud status as a young designer, and a yr wasted.
but bcuz reality tells me tt im not suitable for this, i have to. i fear more of hanging on till e 2nd or even e 3rd yr before i make this decision.
do you knw tt even in e senior cohort, we alrdy have abt 1/3 who left? either they failed or they've withdrawn. im afraid. esp when i see my friends, in all their passion, completing their wrk on time, with me at e opp border still trying to balance.
ppl dont understand. they think im wildfully wasting e fees with which since im not e one paying for, my dad is.
studying isnt to earn big bucks in future. interest is wad keeps us gg, pastor said. so wad's most impt isnt to not-waste e sem's fees and time, but to really find out our field of interest. dont you agree?
at least my Daddy does. :) i rmb e other time andrie was rebuking me on this (tt i shldnt withdraw), Daddy dropped swt words in me. "It's okay if e world thinks the worst of You. I think e best of You, Precious." can you imagine tt! was feeling terrible dealing w rebukes when His words of strength came straight into me, telling me He's on my side and tt's when all others doesnt at all matter. amen w tt! :D
okay, since i've stopped gg, it means a decision made and im in no position to return now even if i find this a wrong one. i cant regret. :o

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Wednesday, August 22, 2007 ♥

books, dad's shop, church and a lil' of joaquim.
these are e things my life's revolving ard these days. since i stopped gg to sch.
sounds simple but they actually occupy all my time now w e exception of 8-9hrs' slp.

been yearning for e time when i can read constantly w/o distractions.
didnt have tt luxury since sch started for me.
now, things are different. i read at least 80-100pgs a day. :)
and for your info, only ancient scottish/english romance w some wartime/revolutionary conspiracy intrigues me. :D
plus, i judge a book by its cover. look, all my books have beautiful cover pgs. hehe.
been spending alot on books lately but i think it's all worth it.

frogs had since became my best friends and worms, enemies since i helped dad at his shop.
i realized frogs are actually cute things. hehe. e way they hop and all, i love it. :D
well, worms doesnt need descriptions. they're a disgust. -.-

e small, and

the big. lovelies.

yay, finally. it's such a joy to serve now w/o restrictions. both in MK and at e church office in e art & craft dep soon.
in PID, tt's almost impossible.
anw, was almost on e verge of resigning frm my commitment serving in church. but, things are supernatural w Christ, amen? :D His strength prevails.. :D

wrking real less in joaquim now.
becoming boring. but i still make it a pt to wrk at least once a wk. else, i'll miss e peeps there, though few now.
sad thing, Jack's leaving us. for another hotel. better prospects, but i'll still miss this uncle-ly friend i have here. and he promises to invite me over nxt yr's cny celebration. :)
shall we have a farewell thingy for him? i guess so. and as usual, e organizer, yours sincerely. :D hehe.

anw, things are gg just right at my own pace now. and im certainly enjoying it. :)
btw, i spent lots of time searching for this song. one of my faves. enjoy.
alright, adr bids goodbye.
another short break before my nxt post as usual now. :)

tmr's e 23rd.
:'(
i have something to say to him.
i can't.

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Thursday, August 16, 2007 ♥

been helping out at dad's shop these few days.
he's without a shop assistant now, so... am being a filial daughter. :D
time passes real easily there, unlike at joaquim where our job is (, to simplify,) walk and walk ard. :X
though it's a lil' dirty there, gotta handle w fishes etc etc etc,
im enjoying it there. like so useful. hehe. so much better than idling my youth away at hm.

anw, cant find replacement. so am wrking later. yup, at joaquim.
bb.

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Sunday, August 12, 2007 ♥

nothing new recently, so havent been updating often.
yea, cuz of e ~~stress~~ i faced while considering abt my course thingy, i was so frustrated abt gg anywhere and meeting anyone. so just simply stayed in and rot. TV TV TV everyday.. :X
i even neglected my dear Jesus who was w me all e while. :( BUT, things happened. was so touched you knw. :) thanks Esther for being tt vessel Daddy used to bless me w! :D

and yes, Arrow day ystd! cuz they moved to e Rock for svc now, it was alot better. more comfort. :)
anw, enjoyed e svc. and went for Arrow dinner.
got hm abt 12am.
too tired tt i slacked till 2am then took my shower. :X then to bed at 3plus.

been slping so late in e night lately.
i dont like dark eye circles. :X

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Wednesday, August 08, 2007 ♥

sorry peeps.
tt i've gone MIA this few days.
i knw you girls are feeling tt im irresponsible and not serious abt my wrk.
but i really need some time to think it over. if i really want to carry on in this course.
though i wont be withdrawing frm PID anytime soon, just take it tt im not there anm.
if i really return, i'll retake these 2 modules e nxt sem. but most probably i wont.

and a great thanks to you girls for always helping me in my wrk esp e 3 buddies i was w during my Model Making dark days. but im v sorry i wont be able to return you this favor like wad Liling said to me tt time "PID's like tt. everyone's helping one another out."
and thks, cihui for tt call ystd telling me to touch up on my wrk and submit soon. :)
you guys are e reason tt i was able to hang on till now.

i hope there'll still be a time when i can still go for another food hunting outing w you guys tgt in future. enjoyed being w you ppl and appreciate all of your help. :)
LILING.SIJIN.SHUMIN.PEISHI.CIHUI.YVETTE.

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Friday, August 03, 2007 ♥

no idea why.
i've got this feeling so strong and sudden.
i miss all my sec 5 peeps, and some frm sec 4.
sk, sn, niza, kim.
zhixiong, dene, renhua, sherwin, gengsheng.
radiah, yati, lijun, jessica, angel.
shunming, cyrus, shamir, russell +++
some used to be close, some not exactly.
but i just miss e class badly.
plus teachers like ms wong, ms boo, mrs yong, mrs yoga, lee lao shi, mr lee +++
i want to go back to sec sch life.. :'( poly's no fun at all.
in sec sch, exams and tests aint impt at all. everyone chiongs last min tgt only for major exams (Ns and Os). now, poly's all on consistency.

if only there's another class outing where all will turn up.
i regret not gg for e last one. :(

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