♥ The Sozo-fied Child ♥

Monday, August 31, 2009 ♥

School just gets on my nerves :(

Just like the last August, the one this year WAS also fraught with many overwhelming incidents.
Sam and I had so many issues back then, good and bad, a lifechanging one too.
Too eventful I almost came out in tatters :X

But just too bad, Aug 09 Im over with you in a couple of hours!
I cant wait.

Hello lovely September you look gorgeous.

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Sunday, August 30, 2009 ♥

One sms that made the day (although it irritatingly broke me from my lovely dreamland).

"Hi! xD"

Lol. Beng's safe in Manila and having loads of injustified fun! O.o

It's wierd how things between us can turn into what it is today.
From many years ago, carrying that torch for him tt I dont want to mention anymore.
To that courtship a couple of wks ago.
I'd nv have expected it to be the best status that ends well for us both now; FRIENDS!

Hoping that this 2half mths pass speedily and he delivers my gift safely back in S'pore!

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Sat. 29 Aug 09

Been such a long time all of us hit town tgt!

We've been sticking ard the bball court far too many weekends these recent months.

Met Des & guys at Marina Square in the evening and caught..

The Final Destination 3D !!

If the sole purpose of the movie is to deliver GORE above everything else, they've done it perfect :X

A 2/5 Im giving the film, joining the majority.

AND.. The 3D specs only made us feel giddy waste money only!

Anyway after the movie tt lasted a pathetic 1.4 hrs, we settled for the utmost convenient place to slack away (instead of the originally suggested KTV) --> Xin Wang HK Cafe right at ground level!

Big (lonely) boss of the day - James (aka Hock)!

Kelvin Candice

Xinhui Yeh

Sam Adrienne

Chris Des

Caught them!

Stupidest things they like to impose on my camera -.-

His signature way of acting cute

And acting Shrek

Mundane stuffs..

Sam massaging my aching arm.

Girls of the day, with my all-delicious Beef horfun :)

Homed, 1plus am.

Short sweet day spent.

It's nv w/o fun being with such a clique :D

School's starting this Monday.

Can I scream a NO and it comes true? :x

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Friday. 28 Aug 09

Dinner with Sam, plus Yeh & Xinhui!
Nice western stall in Hougang serving a wide variety (more than what you have in restaurants).
Very cheap somemore!
However, I wouldnt mind a slightlyyy steeper price, if only they'll move into somewhere air-conditioned from that coffeeshop :)

Afterwhich, met the rest at this family-set pub at Charlton Road (near Kovan).

Sad thing I didnt bring along my cam, plus the fact tt Yeh's taken his sweet long time to send the rest of the pics!
Thus, the boring post :p

Good night!

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Sunday, August 23, 2009 ♥

The 7th significant August 23 in my life.
All of which, though, I have not been a part of it at all.

Until today, I cannot believe all the tenderness has been a fake, for a mere sense of satisfaction.
Am I still naive? Honestly, I dont think so.
I just want to believe the best of.. Everyone.

Years of whatever notorious things I had seen/heard of/experienced, never succeed in making a change of heart in me.
Sometimes I wonder, when is the day I will ever do.

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Saturday, August 22, 2009 ♥

More than a week old, and it's still in the refrigerator!

Movie online with Sam.

Lunch.

Bball.

Dinner-cum-Supper.

Such a simple day also can be put on hold -.-

Been rotting indoors hours now.

Blog-hopping.

Snacking.

Playing Spider Solitaire.

Watching Hammie-boy & the rest sleep.

I just cannot wait to step out of the empty house!!

Oh and did I mention, I had a really romantic time last night driving my family down to Punggol End, Chomp Chomp & Punggol Marina :D

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Friday, August 21, 2009 ♥

Gone is the L-plate.

Gone is the irritating instructor.

Gone is that circuit.

Finally this milestone in my life is completely over.

Paramount stress last night made me lose sleep practically the whole night.

And I havent let anyone who's wished me well for my TP down (anymore).

Needless to say, Mom, whose been supporting me in this morally, practically, and financially!

Today, I can proudly call myself a CERTIFIED Class 3 driver!

Thank you Jesus King :)

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Wednesday, August 19, 2009 ♥

Timetable for nxt term isnt out yet.
But the 3 modules tt are released, keeps me anticipating all 5 days of school in a week :(
I hope against all odds that it wont be so predictable.
Spending more time wrking or on revision definitely is better than wasting travelling to and fro school.

Extremely stressed out now my head hurts.
This Friday's TP.
Instructor keeps running me down saying that I will fail.
And if I do, it'll be ALL BECAUSE OF HIM.
Such a lousy one I hope he nv gets business again!
Hold it, I wont be seen evil if you've seen how he's only such a money-grubber :X
Anyway this license has cost me such a bomb (more than $3K) now and I hope this time round nothing goes wrong please.

STRESSED please turn into DESSERTS now! :(

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Monday, August 17, 2009 ♥

Sat. 15 Aug 09. (II)

If I knew I'd be meeting Sam up in Sengkang, I could travel with Mango!
A widest smile I gave him when he came to pick me up at Compass Point.
That familiar face, familiar feel.
Headed to Sengkang Drive-thru Mac to meet the rest of the bball-mates for supper.
Equally familiar track, bball courts, and those 2 chairs still there, at the opp side.
Cannot describe how much comfort I felt seeing the way I was welcomed back by them all. Priceless :)

I feel like this incident has somehow, brought Sam and I closer tgt.
As much as I had always refused to admit how gullible I was, this time round I know I really am.
I hugged him tight, told him I was sorry.
How he rubbed on my arm, "realised you're wrong now? realised it?!" Also priceless! :D
Sam's always been known to me for being very big-hearted. He's quickly forgiven and forgotten whatever wrongs I did in the past. But I nv expected him to still be, this time round.
Lit a smile on my face.
Sets me thinking; Sometimes along the way, we'll meet with villains (or so, a better word?) to better strengthen our bonds, isnt it?

But something just beats me why;

Isnt it better to remain an unreachable dream in a girl's eyes forever, than to force her to be convinced that he was a mere sham not worth a penny at all?

Strange ppl just exists.

Whatever status we hold now.

Couple Lovers Friends?

Sam's given me a free choice :)

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Sat. 15 Aug 09 (I)

Amazing thing to say that both JAM grps are all girlfriends!
Hence, it's nv surprising to have some outings with alphabetical juggle-ups.
Adelene Adrienne Mango this time round :D

Sorry girls it seems like Im forever late too!
My apologies.
Met the girls up at Bugis and we spent MOST of the time just chatting & chatting.
Shopping, for that moment, seemed secondary.

Discerning Mango kept catching me while my mind flew off present to some vexation!
Opps, cannot help it!
Some things just catch me off-guard when I thought I had the ultimate control after all.

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Friday, August 14, 2009 ♥

When you're upset, everything you see, irks you.
When you're jovial, everything's a joke and you laugh them off.

Mood's been swinging since the day I became unattached.
Honestly, I didnt expect myself to feel so relieved after the breakup.
Being single is the best gift in life suddenly and surprisingly.
I thought I wouldnt have frds apart from Sam.
I thought I would have nowhere to go, nothing else to do.
I thought I'd emo for a long long time.

Im still someone who cannot leave things be easily.
I still miss Sam, so much, I thought about going back to him.
And I yearn his forgiveness.
I hope he'll be my best frd still.
I hope I can go over and scratch his back everyday to make it up to him.
Sorry, but I think that's a bad joke itself.
He wouldnt let me.

Should I just move on?
With all the guilt riddened?

Phrase been repeating itself in my mind:
"Ultimately you want someone to fall head over heels with you.
Not someone who just settles for you."

Every girls' dream.
Guys' even.

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Thursday, August 13, 2009 ♥

Eventful last night.

This morn I awoke to see the last surviving scratch-mark on my wrist.
Pains my heart that you no longer belong to me.
I dont think I'll ever forget that disappointment in your eyes.
I know I've erred this time.

Pictures I wont remove still.
The ring I wont remove still.
Those boxers I also hope not to return so soon.
Wait till I've really come to terms that we're no longer ONE.
Thick-skinned? I dont care.

Many false alarms in the past.
I've always thought we would part mutually and beautifully.
But only the one most unprepared worked.
I didnt hold on not bcuz I've chosen him over you.
If I had the ability to change the many situations we faced, you'll still remain my first place.
Definitely.
We know best whatever problems we'd alrd have, buried deep down.

However much unhappiness we had, you remain my best bf undoubtedly.
BEST.

A love Sam & Adrienne shared,
26 Feb 08 - 12 Aug 09.

Love you, very much.

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Tuesday, August 11, 2009 ♥

Away from me, dark shadows :)

A good night's slp has pretty much restored me.

I didnt stay up late to mug, I spent the whole of the journey's hr to read up.
Surprisingly, the paper today isnt THAT tough after all!
But which grade Im not this confident to speak for anymore.

I'd prepared myself for something less than a date this aftn, only to realise it was to be cancelled.
No big deal actually, cuz what matters is PEOPLE!
There's always another chance :)

I've got another "date" now.
They're celebrating Chong's bday this evening yoohoo I can go out again!

I believe Im still the angelic Adrienne so kind, despite all the rantings last night caused by some frustration :p

P/s: Gg through all past pics. I think I can seriously give up the idea of having my hair cut short. I nv realised how ugly I was -.-

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Monday, August 10, 2009 ♥

Went Amk's Library w Sis this evening to do my last lap of revision for the POM paper tmr.

Sad to say, I was so distracted I didnt think the 2hrs there was well-spent, at all.

I'd written 70% of the notes I ought to, and only 50% of those went into my head since I started telling myself a month ago that it was time to start.

I seriously HATE POM.

The whole aftn Sis and I were still laughing at silly jokes, out loud.

Evening came and suddenly it turned into a highly-irritable 2nd half of the day for me.

No. 1:

I was suddenly reminded abt this frd of Sam's who passed remarks abt me.

Does she know how on earth Beng was thinking abt me, and me abt him?

No she didnt.

Then why am I stupid when she hadnt even gotten her facts right?

Just based on those minimum info passed to her through Sam?

Then abt her, I didnt even say one negative word abt her being another stupid woman who's old enough to think, yet readily ......... so on.

Seriously, I have no intention of making personal attacks.

Since the very start I only had good things to say abt her.

But I just felt indignant of being called stupid on no good grounds.

No. 2:

A fact that my bf does not protect me from negative opinions of outsiders, makes me feel really hurt.

Many times, whether or not Im in the wrong, I get exposed to whatever shit in his frds' eyes.

I DO NOT GET A CHANCE TO EXPLAIN FOR MYSELF BCUZ THOSE FRDS ARE HIS.

Sometimes I start to wonder that honesty isnt one good trait in a r/s.

Im truthful almost all the time.

But I dont get praised for it.

I only got run down.

So the new-found rule is that, as long you dont get caught, carry on.

Search me, what is right anymore?

No. 3:

Sis doesnt approve of what Im doing.

That's not the main point.

What's been suffocating me, is the fact that I myself feel terribly incorrect.

I've always emphasized on my principles and that's what has been making me.

Now that I've twisted it, everything seems to have gone wrong.

Everything.

14 more hrs to POM paper.

Still, I cannot digest anything.

Very weary.

No more nice pics.

No more entertaining contents.

I do not know what to blog, and what not to, anymore.

P/s: Sam just wished me a goodnight. For such a long time he hadnt. Should I still be ranting abt our r/s here? Feel so sorry for myself.

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Thursday, August 06, 2009 ♥

FA1 Paper today.
Sian.
Havent been diligent enough, and I guess I deserve no Ace this time round.
Grace grace anyway!

Been pretty much of a passenger to SMRT today.
Keep training to and fro.

Nice Life Partner series I've been listening to for the past few days (including today).
The perfect combination of wisdom and comedy. Food for me, no doubt!

Feeling so guilty.
Do I really have to bend my principles?
Im not one to do that, definitely :(

2:55am

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Monday, August 03, 2009 ♥

Sat. 01 Aug 09

I feel like I havent been exercising for some time now and was looking forward to the bball workout.
In the end it was cancelled -.-

Went steamboating at Tanjong Pagar with Sam and guys instead.
Yeh and Xinhui no come :(

I'm suspecting that there's a bit of a problem with my body/digestive system.
- My humongous appetite has now shrinked to an extend that I can no longer stretch it further after I feel full.
- I cannot hold my bladder and feel very nervous when nature calls (for fear that I might wet myself again).
- I always get up at least an hour before the time my alarm is expected to sound no matter how late I go to bed the night before. And I can no longer get back to slp anymore.
- I keep feeling nausea (esp after meals).

ANYWAY.
Back to the point, I didnt eat my fill at all.

GOOD NIGHT!!

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Sunday. 02 Aug 09

Headed off for Ah Gong's 75th bday celebration at this Seafood Buffet restaurant located at the ECP after collecting his bday cake!

Such a huge one!

Anyway there's ONE review for it; Suckingly sucks.

The buffet menu was very limited and not the least inviting at all.

Throughout the whole brunch, I only enjoyed the ice-cream puffs (which is something not even prepared by the restaurant itself).

And it's $26.90++ per pax (although solely billed to our oldest uncle) -.-

Our reserved room.

The once-a-year gigantic D24 durian cake.

That's our grandparents.

Honestly we didnt enjoy the meal and dreaded gg for paternal gatherings usually.

Aint the least close to those relatives.

Many fake peeps we couldnt care to entertain?

So we left as soon as after the cake-cutting session was over.

However, there is this one cute little coussie I was practically chasing after just a take a pic with him!

Shy lil' boy keep hiding fr me :(

Dinner with Sam tonight!

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