Tuesday, November 28, 2006 ♥
yay! i've finally found a part-time job with hazel to see me through some difficult ($$$) times before EJ camp! hehe. travelled to and fro at town this morning looking for suitable jobs but to no avail. the ideal ones available in the papers are either too far, or that they are only open to ages 18 and above. okay, though am happy to have found this f&b job, but... i'll tell you a bad bad news. a primary school 'enemy' of mine is already a staff there. idiot la. im feeling so uncomfortable now already. cuz i hate dealing with "office politics" or shall we call it "a-friendship-on-the-outside, emity-on-the-inside". you should've listened to us talk just now, so hypocritical. i really really hate this! but, good thing i went through this when i was still a crew in BK at the tender age of 14 (sec 2), so i can still handle this now although i dont like it.honestly, im not really interested in f&b jobs la, but at least i get to serve customers here which is what i love doing. cuz im always polite to them and naturally, get the satisfaction when they are happy with my service. :D anw, my boss-to-be looks almost like leslie. okay, not exactly the looks, but certainly the seh (colour, in hokkien), means, the way they talk and stuff la. really alike. erm, although almost all my friends think that leslie is totally far too 'out' to be a boyfriend, and although he's a bad egg (i'd say), but, he can be really soft with you as well (depending on the situation). perhaps it's because of what we had both went through together, that's why i still feel a certain sense of belonging to him even until now after years. i cant explain, you'll really have to go through it personally to understand. i just have this wierd feeling towards him, plus some mixed feelings of hatred and regret (all confused and mixed up). i really cant explain. well, if we were to return to the past again, i think i'd probably still choose what i chose then. cuz if not for what i went through, i wouldnt have learnt this much. sorry, if you think that im asking for trouble, but these are sacrifices to make.as i've said before, major things i keep in heart, certain minor matters i wont be able to forget. it's not like i want to think of them but im just feeling so mixed up as memories keep haunting my mind right now.
