Spent e night at Darling's place on Friday. Half day on Sat and he sent me to and back frm wrk. Then to Plaza for Suki. Last min we had company. :) Eddie & Mango.
Ps thereafter suposedly for a movie. No suitable timing. :X So as a result, merely shopped ard and bought a couple of stuff for my office desk.
Met Des and Angela for dinner/supper at S'goon Garden for this sort-of famous western food. Fish and Chips for all. V inviting, v tasty. Back Darling's place 11plus pm.
Since when have I become this submissive, this fearful of his impatience? Been so constantly trying to fight back tears e whole time all w way since our way back from Ps. Doesnt he knw.
Was crying so silently lying nxt to him and he's peacefully snoring. Doesnt he feel it. Just a casual question, "how come e pillow's wet?" Been repeatedly asking myself why am I tolerating quietly w him, his temper and his insensitivity, putting up an act a loving couple we are? Just to prove to myself I've made a right choice against e tides of disapproval.
I want my friendships back again, not just a buddy's gf. And it's been years since I last cried myself to slp. And it's nv be because of a guy.
He's gg for his reservice tmr. And I hope this is a good time I learn how to let go gradually as Sis suggested. Hopefully.
No idea if we're still meeting up today. Maybe still so?
