Monday, October 27, 2008 ♥
This morn, surprisingly I got up early despite a late night last night, a PH this morn.Events of this past 8mths kept flooding my mind, refusing to let me get back to slp.8mths of being attached.A part of it sooo happy I cant deny his efforts, 2 fractions miserable.So then, how do I decide.Feeling so lost, awesome DaddyGod spoke to me. :)A quiet time Im finally free enough for.Told me to go pick up my phone and go through the list of friends I have in it,numbering those ex-suitors I used to have before this relationship.The more recent ones.Then percentage it.Guys. Minus those who merely wanted a fling and lasted less than a couple of mths (and those who didnt make their feelings known to me), I still have 17%.Not alot I guess, but tt's exactly what Daddy said to me,"See, havent you attracted guys who are serious w you when your love was all on me? If I can make you a heads-turn even when you were younger and w/o any makeup tt you now need, why not more abundantly right now? Take my yoke and trust me. I'll nv let you suffer nor be heart-broken. Again. Give to me what wringed heart you're left with."Wows me.I was amazed and realized tt all these mths, I've nv been able to decide clearheadedly cuz Im always w him, clinging to him, getting so used to him. My Darling.It's time I put some distance and space between us for a clearer view.Difficult it is,I feel a sense of belonging so strong towards him, and all tt feelings so deep even now.But still, I think I should give it a try.A happy 8th mth tt just passed yest.Oct 26, 2008.Last 4 days to go, happily jobless. :DByebye.
